Order Va a Llover Toda La Noche
©️La Chancleta Voladora
Edition of 300
After my mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, I felt devastated,
overwhelmed, anxious and helpless.
Mi mama se me iba a ir.
En mi desesperación de entender lo que le estaba pasando y
porque nunca realmente sentí que la conocí, empecé este proyecto
llamado, Va a Llover Toda La Noche.
I began going through old family photos, emails, text messages,
collecting old prayer cards, pieces of yarn, drawings, notes- all
sorts of ephemera found in the overwhelming clutter of my
mom’s room.
Cada vez que regresaba a Miami, sentía la necesidad de
documentar todo: mi mamá, nosotras, nuestra colonia, todo.
I became obsessed with the idea that one day everything would
change, that she would no longer be able to speak, or be able to
recognize me.
No estaba lista para no soltar a mi mamá y necesitaba hacer todo
lo posible para tenerla conmigo.
Para mi mamá, con quien he pasado tantos altibajos, verte pasar
por este proceso ha sido the biggest heartbreak of my life.
Este libro te lo dedico a ti.
Even as your disease progresses and your memories begin to fade
away, you continue to teach me how expansive love can be.
I’m sorry that it took all of this for me to really see you.
But I’m here.
I’m with you.
Te amo.
